Back to School

Back to school.
Back to school, to prove to Dad that I'm not a fool.
I got my lunch packed up, my boots tied tight,
I hope I don't get in a fight.
Ohhhh, back to school.
Back to school. Back to school. Well, here goes nothing. ~Billy Madison

It's true. Summer is over for me. I have to head back to work tomorrow to get my room in ship-shape for my first graders next week. It's funny...I'm going into my fourth year of teaching (gosh, it's been 4 years), and I still get the jitters. I guess it's natural with all of the elements involved in the beginning of the year- getting the room set-up, working with a new teaching partner, meeting and teaching new kids. Also, having dreams/nightmares about school doesn't help either! I think as the days go by, those jitters will turn into excitement

Hopefully, I won't have to make any more Target/Staples/Walmart/Michael's runs! I have enough folders for a small village.

Just putting this out there...

If you plan on filing a lawsuit against someone, please check to make sure you're suing the correct person. It will save you a lot of time, money, angry phone calls, and annoying paperwork. It will also prevent you from looking like an idiot. Seriously. Check your bank records before accusing someone of not paying their full amount of rent. OR, simply ask them, and not wait 4 months later to broach the subject again.

I think these lyrics describe my mindset right now...

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you're doing to me
I have spent all my years believing you
But I just can't get no relief, Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work hard every day of my life
I work till I ache in my bones
At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own -
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray
Till the tears run down from my eyes
Lord - somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me - somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday - I try and I try and I try -
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I'm goin' crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
I got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah - yeah yeah yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody - somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I'm ok, I'm alright
I ain't gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!

Ramblings...

I had the amazing opportunity to attend my wonderful friend Jen's wedding in Kansas. It was an exquisite weekend--she really outdid herself with wedding planning all in less than 6 months. The flowers, dresses, decorations, all absolutely beautiful. She has definitely given me food for thought when it is eventually my turn to head down the aisle.

Speaking of...as amazing as the weekend was, there were so many times where I was reminded of the fact that I am single. All of the married couples around me. Me and 3 other girls rocking it out the Single Ladies. No one to dance with when the "slow songs" came on at the reception. These days, I feel like single girls are pressured to think "Single and Fabulous." As one acquaintance posted on facebook, "Independent and Available." True, I subscribe to this mindset most of the time. But as the days, weeks, and years pass by, I'm sick and tired of it. I really do want to fall in love, get married, and have babies. But there is no one knocking down my door.

Of course, I'm not totally deluded, thinking that Prince Charming is just going to show up at my door. But I also just don't want to meet a random guy in a random bar. Jen and Wes's story of love was so inspiring...being set up with her on a field trip she took with her first graders. She had never really been in a relationship before she met him....and then ::spark:: they make the connection, fall in love, and live happily ever after. Her story has certainly given me hope, but it's also a lot to live up to. I have to keep the faith that there is someone out there for me, that I am deserving of love and all of these things that I desire in my life.

Also, and I guess this is along the lines of the subject...it was so amazing to be around two Christian families these past weekend. With a lot of my friends, I don't feel a sense of religion or faith, but this was incredible and made me feel like I was home. God's love certainly was all around us this weekend and present in so many ways. He has certainly blessed Jen and Wes and their respective families, and I just need to be patient and wait for His blessing.